Sunday, November 28, 2010

Snapshots

Growing up, I loved to draw and paint and make things with my hands.  But I got away from it out of frustration; nothing turned out the way I wanted it to, reason being that I wanted to recreate something that already existed.  It was like I wanted to make an exact copy of a photo or the perfect likeness of a flower.  Of course, I never could.  Then, one day not too long ago, it came to me.  And it seemed so obvious, so art-school-101, but I had never thought about it really.  Maybe other people do.  I hadn't.  Anyway, I realized that when I draw or paint, I envision the image as it exists, when, all along, I should have been envisioning what I wanted my painting to look like!  I should have been working with what I have, not with what someone else has already created.  In that moment of clarity, I realized that I am capable of creating my own world, and I can start now.

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Most Sundays, I'm the one in charge of opening the restaurant.  This means I have to be there at 6:30, which means I wake up at 5.  Driving to work takes me a little more or a little less than five minutes, and I don't shower or make too much of my appearance on these mornings.  The real reason I jump out of bed at 5 in the morning is so I can eat breakfast and take a little trip via public television.  After my eggs are fried or my pancakes are puffed, I sit down to breakfast with Rick Steves...and Rudy Maxa, shortly thereafter.  It's not really important where they take me or even the travel wisdom they impart.  The best part is seeing the sights, remembering the places I've been and planning for the trips ahead.  And actually, I spend the first few languid hours at work daydreaming about Paris or Istanbul, trying to be anywhere but there.

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Luke brought the Beatles into my life.  I was in love with Luke, and he was in love with the Beatles, so of course they became important to me.  That was somewhere around fourth grade, or sixth...  Who knows?  I was in love with him for a long time.  It seems strange that he was the first to really put them on my radar and not my parents.  That was their generation after all.  Hell, my grandpa took my aunt Phyllis to see the Beatles play at Busch Stadium in '66.  Can you imagine?  But rock 'n' roll was never really their thing.  Anyway, Luke told me that once when he was home sick from school, he was laying on the couch listening to Magical Mystery Tour while his dad was in the kitchen making a rhubarb pie.  Or maybe his dad was singing something from the album, or else Luke had been holding the record sleeve, thinking, "Holy shit, this is trippy....  And they're on to something."  Luke couldn't remember the circumstances, but that album made him think of being home from school and discovering the Beatles while his father was in the kitchen.  As for me, I still associate the Beatles with Luke, and vice versa, but now, whenever someone mentions rhubarb pie, I think of Mr. Prize.

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Our last night in Rome, the night before we flew home (I think it might have been a Wednesday?), my sister and I walked around the city after dinner to see all the tourist spots lit up.  We stopped by the Trevi Fountain and the Spanish Steps before making our way to the Colosseum, giddy on wine and the anticipation of being home.  Across the street from the ruins, in front of the metro entrance and next to one of Rome's many accessible fountains, a man approached me.  He looked to be 30-something, wearing simple clothes and not carrying anything but his phone.  In Italian he asked if I wouldn't mind taking his picture with the Colosseum in the background.  Flattered to have been taken for a concittadina--or at least someone who might understand his language--and high on the charms of the Eternal City, I eagerly agreed.  He handed me his phone, and I pointed to a button, asking, "Questa qui?This one here?  He smiled just as wide as I surely was, and I probably counted to three in Italian, just to really lay it on thick.  He thanked me and went on his way and I rejoined my sister, proudly explaining the exchange she had seen.  I imagined the man sending the picture as an SMS to a girlfriend or mother somewhere in rural Italy, and I liked thinking that I'd be there too, in a way.

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Thursday, November 25, 2010

Reasons to Give Thanks

Well, just one of many: this guy.



Sunday, November 21, 2010

Sunday Wisdom

Recently, an acquaintance imparted this wisdom to me, advice that he had secured from his 102-year-old grandmother: The secret to longevity is a shot of whiskey and a glass of red wine before bed, every night.  Clearly a woman after my own heart...

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Epilogue to a Tragedy in One Act

Tim is now engaged to be married.

Rob is officially dating the girl he proclaimed to be crazy.

Rebecca is wondering where the hell the past two months have gone.

In a Past Life

I was cool once.  Outwardly, anyway.  I played bass in a blues rock band and sang a little too.  I was barely old enough to drive and years away from being legal when we first started out, but I could hang, or at least pretend to.  Sure, we played a lot of dives, and I got more practice in rejecting creepy old men than I could ever have bargained for, but looking back, that's not what I remember.  I remember the roadtrips and the couches we crashed on (stories for another time), listening to Dan drunkenly banter on about art and music in some dark corner of the bar, goofing out with Jeff on and off stage, and accepting the beers Andy would slip me.  I remember the compliments and the kisses, the hugs and the handshakes.  And maybe most gratifying of all, I remember the surprised looks on the faces of the guys in the bands we played with; before the show, I had just been one of the band girlfriends carrying her boyfriend's guitar.  But after...that was something else.

I've traded in my bass guitar for...other things I guess.  And more often than not, I spend the day in pencil skirts and kitten heels as opposed to bell-bottom jeans and sandals (even temps have to look professional).  So things change.  That's just what time will do.  Those memories of being a rocker chick are part of me, though, and I'm glad for it.


Oh, by the way, I had bangs once that sort of made me look like Chan Marshall...when I was eight. 
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Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Lesson Learned

"That's the thing about our lives, isn't it?  It's so easy to fall asleep when there's nothing to keep you awake."